This was such a clever point for me to take a time-out from writing. Because now I can make a fun list of all the excuses for why it happened. The main excuse is school. Unfortunately I didn’t have any writing classes that helped lend me some time to work on my creative writing. I had two psychology classes that forced professional writing onto my plate. My education class did something similar, but there was a nice side dish of creative projects there. And then my other class was Spanish which didn’t do much for this site. Working at the restaurant chewed up a bit of time. The Office and Chuck took up a lot of time… The Voice and The Walking Dead too (Daryl!). None of these are good reasons to completely forget about writing, which is precisely why they are being filed under excuses.
But winter break has arrived! And the fact that I haven’t played video games in months is starting to wear on me… It’s not that I haven’t played at all, but more like I haven’t been able to take a couple hours and just play. I’ve always had to squeeze a few matches of something in here or there. I mean, I was pouring hours of my life into Skyrim at the end of the summer and that came to a rather abrupt halt. Is this really worth complaining about? Apparently, because I just did. And I want to read and write more, blah blah blah.
I want to stop making excuses for why I am not writing, and I’ve fully confessed above. Well, maybe not fully, but I’ve thrown a lot of my mistakes out there. And I know I’m not the only one making excuses for things. We all do it. Everything in moderation though. Yes, sometimes excuses are necessary to avoid uncomfortable situations, and sometimes they avoid an uncomfortable situation or conversation that needs to happen.
Okay, I’m hopping off the fence on this one. Excuses suck. We use them because we are lazy. Sometimes we waste more time coming up with the excuse than just doing or saying the thing we are avoiding. We make excuses to avoid the harder decisions. Some of us find change hard, so it is easier to lie to ourselves about our happiness and we end up continuing on miserably because we told ourselves it was okay. Well I got news for you, sister: it’s not okay. Suck it up and do what needs to be done. Excuses generally show a lack of faith in ourselves. Instead of giving ourselves a challenge, we take the easier route and do the minimum, sometimes that being nothing. Instead of just letting go of something that is bad for us, we hold on because we’ve been convinced that letting go is worse. You can’t start healing until you get the poison out.